So... I r back.

[Shiva64]

So yeah. It seems like this place has finally calmed down and straightened up.. so I'm back for the time being. I didn't want this in the Intro thread (not like it really needs to be put there anyways), because I wanted to tell you all everything that's been going on since I like.. left.

Well.. that Australian I was going out with.. we broke up. To make a long story short: He cheated on me with a 43yr old. ...Yeah. This is the second time he has pulled this, and I don't give anymore second chances. So.. I have a new boyfriend (yeah.. that was INSANELY quick).. but.. I don't know.. I'm like.. more confused than anything. I still love my ex to death.. and still have deep feelings for him... but.. I don't know. I really don't know if what he does now to try and prove himself would get me to go back to him. I love the guy I'm with now.. but.. not the same way or as much as I loved my ex. I hate stuff like this.


And my uncle has lung cancer.. and doesn't have much longer to live now.. and his wife just had a heart attack (but is doing good now) before we found out about him.. so interms of family.. not so great stuff now.

Anyways.. I got a new GCN now. Umm.. oh yeah. Not only am I hypoglycemic (low blood sugar, opposite of diabetes, but mostly same symptoms) now, I'm also anemic. FUN! And... Oh hell. I can't remember what else I was gonna say now. D:

So yeah.. I'm back.. and hopefully for good this time around.

[Waffle Monger]

Yo, glad your back. Man, that sucks ass. And that is why I don't want to be in a long distance relationship... I'm sorry to hear that, but I hope that emotionally you are doing better, yea yea I know, but still. For if we never had hope man wouldn't exist any longer.

Btw, it's been calm for about 2 months now, just been waiting for you guys.

[Pilgrim John]

Really? That sucks. Hard.
...Really dunno what else to tell you. Your boyfriend cheats on you, your uncle is gonna die, you still cling to bad relationships, and you're anemic... Quite a load to carry. I just hope you're tough enough to carry it all.

[Shiva64]

graymatter said:

Yo, glad your back. Man, that sucks ass. And that is why I don't want to be in a long distance relationship... I'm sorry to hear that, but I hope that emotionally you are doing better, yea yea I know, but still. For if we never had hope man wouldn't exist any longer.

Btw, it's been calm for about 2 months now, just been waiting for you guys.

Yeah.. but.. they can work if they both learn that sex isn't everything and isn't as bloody fun with some random person than the one you love to death.

But.. he couldn't keep his dick in his pants, or use his bloody brain and crap. So whatever. I can find better guys who are more faithful and can learn to use their hands or wait for their girls when the moment arises (no pun intended). I bloody deserve more than that after everything I've had to deal with in my life.

The guy I'm with now.. we've been together a few times before.. and I broke up with him those times before because he always got in trouble. Stealing and being sent to Juvy, and just not being a very good boyfriend overall. But he's changed, unlike the last guy. He treats me like I'm his girl now. And he's stopped getting in trouble too. And in all the times we've been together.. he's never cheated on me.

This is why it's so hard.. He's changed, he's still himself, but he's changed his actions and has been faithful to me. But.. I don't love him as much as I would like.. it could change... but yeah. And the other guy.. he's done some stupid crap.. but I love him to death. It's like.. ugh... I hate being confused.

[KoE_Hades]

Well, I'm glad you're back Shiva, but I'm sorry that you have to go through all of those tings. Well, best of luck.

[Life is a Nintendo Game]

Love is a strange thing, there is no baseline to say whether you truly love someone or you love someone a little bit. I'm sure one day things will be much clearer after the chaos of life, then you can truly see.
I hope everything works out, it'll be nice to get to know you.

[Jason-RN]

Welcome back, Shiva. It sounds like you've been through a lot, but I'm sure that everything will start working out for the better.

[ruben_gamer4life]

Yes welcome back